Talk, Talk, Talk. Say something wouldja?

Well. I screwed up again. But it has nothing to do with school this time. I finished a physics lab and got my homework on a timely schedule for tomorrow, despite the band contest today in which we qualified for area.
Yay. Now I have a different issue to vent about.

I suck at talking to people. Like this blog is alright with everything I say, but in real life it's tough for me to say stuff to people. I know I'm not that good at talking, so I stay silent until I think of something relevant/funny/important when it's appropriate to/when no one else is saying anything. I hate to interrupt others, and it bugs me when people are listening to some story and say No and proceed to one-up it. I mean, one-ups are funny sometimes but it's important to let the original speaker finish y'know?
And then there's the whole don't talk to strangers deal. It's not that I'm afraid to talk to people I don't know too well (that's pretty much it). Guts. That's what I need. I would tell that ozzy wizrd "Yo, hit me up with some courage like that lion man." Then he would say something like "You got guts to say stuff like that man, don't come here asking for things you already got." Most of all it's my eye contact issue. Do I stare a lot? I guess I do. But what the hell am I supposed to do while I'm thinking? Meditate? (That's not really how I roll) It just so happens that I end up making eye contact with a whole mess of people that I normally never would even talk to while I'm thinking of something else. Am I leading them on? Is that even possible? Maybe I think too much about these things, think too much about things in general in the wrong way.

Wow. That was quite a rant. Sometimes I wish I was born saying stupid stuff all the time without thinking.